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[01 Mar 2007|10:57am] |
I'm going to get another tattoo today.
A snake on the back of my right ankle.
I think tonight I'll go and see Ghost Rider with Brett and Brandon.
Saturday I'll be in Lawrence to see Reverend Horton Heat with my beat up buddy, Brett, and Daniel. I havn't seen Daniel in soooo long and I think it's possible that I have really missed him.
As for the next three months, I won't be doing anything because I'll be broke. My paychecks are going directly to the bank and I'm not touching it. No table. No clothes. No concerts. No fun stuff. Nothing. So I'm glad I bought my tv when I did.
And I think it would be really cool to have septum jewelry made to look like Salvador Dali's mustache! That's what I really want!
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[27 Feb 2007|10:20pm] |
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I would say it was about a week ago, I got bit behind my right knee by something. I showed my mum and she said that it's probably just a spider bite. No biggie. It was fine until recently. It feels like it's cutting off the circulation in my leg and it's turning purple. So I have to go to the doctor's. Lame.
Also, the neighbors behind me own cows. Sometimes, they come as close to our house as the fence dividing our land. While I was doing dishes earlier, I look out the window... and there's a cow in our backyard! Next to our friggin pool! I took a picture, but I can't find my sd card reader. I also didn't want to get too close because it was looking at me like it was going to kill me. Haha. But I found it quite amusing. Not too many people can say, "I saw a cow in my backyard!". . . .but then again.. not too many people get excied over thistles like I do.
I accomplished a great deal today:
-Cleaning.
-Guitar Hero II.
-Work.
-More Guitar Hero II.
I was talking to Brian earlier today and we got on the topic of Comicons. KC or Lawrence doesn't have nearly as many as they ought to, but we made it a deal that the next one that comes I'll be going with him and his friend Josh. That is, as long as he brought his daughter too because I simply adore her! She is seriously the cutest little girl you've ever seen and she remembers me for my red lips when she first met me. It's too cute. And yes Brad, she even puts that little girl from Zoom to shame. FREALS!!
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[24 Feb 2007|10:35am] |
There will be more Dali tattoos in the future.
Off to Subway with Rachel and then to work.
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[23 Feb 2007|10:34pm] |
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Sooooo... I was getting irritated. I wanted to go to Mercy Seat Tattoo. I spent all day cleaning my room out. Throwing all the useless shit I had stuffed in my closet out. Giving half of my stuff away. I found a million cds I thought I lost and I'm so happy I found my VNV Nation Matter + Form cd! Anywho. All day on that, I was ready to go out to buy some organizing units for my room, decorative frames for my wall, a Frenchy iron wall decoration for above my bed, and to get my tattoo. And yes! I finally got my see through curtains up around my bed that I got for Christmas. I'm just excited. I was in one of those moods to rearrange everything. A little something people like to call change I guess. I like different. So I finished that and got dressed. I called Rachel at about 3:30... "I'm out my door, I'm on my way over!!" Well she should have been over at my place at 3:40 then. Nope. She arrives at 6:00. (btw, Kelsey decided to spend the day with Mike instead.) Apparently her and her room mates got into it. They can't pay their rent. Their $150 rent. They might be moving out. Rachel wants me to move in. I definately need a new car. I guess I could have used that $600 on a down payment. Whatever. She had problems with her roommates, understandable. I just get irritated so easily. Especially when I was so excited to get my tattoo and was ready to go. Not sit and chit chat with my mum. She arrives. We leave. I went to From The Grave instead of Mercy Seat. I'm familiar with Jimmy, Ronnie, Nick, Joey, and Jay anyways. I wanted Jimmy but he was booked. But I was comfortable with Ronnie doing it. He's done some bad ass works. I came in right before their "rush" and got it done. They thought it would take an hour to do, but it ended up taking about two hours. They all liked it too. "That's a wicked idea... it's going to be bad ass... Dali is the shiznit.." Haha. They crack me up. JoMo may not be all cracked out but I like that tattoo shop. Ronnie wanted to get a picture of it, but his camera ran out of memory on the sd card. So I told him I'd come back in two weeks for him to get a pic when it was all healed. I'm excited to get more work. What's funny though is I had some scratch marks on my back from Brad and they were interrogating me about them and giving me shit, lol. But even though this was all jumbled up (like most of my posts are) I think I'm done for the night. I havn't told my parents that I got it yet. They know I've been debating and talking to tattoo shops about it and they were pushing for me not to get it. I'm staying over at Rachel's tonight and watching this low budget sci-fi movie I got from Wal-Mart for $1.00. Actually there's like 4 movies on it. Ha. I rule, I know. I'll get a picture of my tattoo tomorrow morning. Oh yeah, I only spent $125 on it too. Not too bad.
PS.
Jasmine wants me to dance with her at Shady Lady. I think I might take her up on her offer. She tells me I don't have to get totally nude, I like that. I wouldn't mind dancing with that sexay lady and hanging out with Sean. It'll be just like a trip to Disneyland! Weeeeeee!
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[19 Feb 2007|12:59pm] |
I just love last minute phone calls requesting me to get some art pieces I've done together for the Albright-Kemper show. "Can you give them to me by tomorrow?" . . . . Ugh. Sure. Let me just remember where the hell I put those specific ones you want. In my closet? Under my bed? Behind my secretary? Maybe still on display at the bank? I don't know where the my Captain Spaulding print is! I don't want my bolts and wire piece to go up because I"m not finished with it. And the reason why it's not finished is because she liked it a different way... so I did it that way.. and I don't have motivation to work on it anymore because I don't like it. And then let me figure out how you're going to get them because I won't be here.
She's taking my Angela Ryan scissor piece. And keeping it until April. That's my favorite one. :(
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[18 Feb 2007|01:07am] |
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yo.
So I'm past that borderline state of mind of whether or not to get a tattoo. I decided yes. I have the money in my wallet. I have the time off. I'm going to. And yes, this goes beyond being a whore for Dali. *gasp* My knowledge does exceed transversely!! WhoWuddaThunkIt?! One of my favorite pieces of Dali's is The Temptation of St. Anthony.
I've talked about getting the space elephant previously, and yes I'm going to get it for sure. (The elephant with the pyramid on it's back.) That elephant represents Hilarion, or Lucifer. In the story of The Temptation of Saint Anthony, Lucifer tries to tempt him away from his chosen lifestyle by creating doubt as well as morphs into science. If you know me.. at all... yes, I do go weak in the knees for evil and sin. I would get Lucifer in the ass with a strap on. That aside, it'll also remind myself not to let others deviate my route. There's another bit tying me to this specific tattoo, but that's a personal reason not worth sharing.
My mum doesn't care too much for the space elephant idea. She's pushing to have me get Koi Fish on my side/hip. I wouldn't mind it, but it's nothing I'm dead set on. Besides. I hate sea creatures. I only like Koi Fish for the aesthetic Japanese art aspect. That's it. I'd rather paint Koi fish.
Nathan suggested Mercy Seat Tattoo Studio in KC because there's no way in hell I'd go to St. JoMo and I wasn't impressed at all with the tattoo parlor Alyssa goes to. Especially after seeing her tattoos and how they messed up on them. I absolutely can not wait for Johnny to do it in Holland. I need it now.
I found out Katie is contemplating joining the military. That caught me off gaurd.
Facebook is retarded. No. I don't miss highschool. Yes, I enjoy the graduated life. And I thought I'd be nice to some of my friends and go to Prom for their satisfaction of my 'ever so pleasing presence' (HA.. cough) but I took a 180 on them. I graduated early for a reason. Why the hell would I go back for prom? I've gone through highschool not attending any dance for a reason. Facebook was really the only thing I had tying me back there. I deactivated it. Whatev.
I don't like unprovoked penis in my inbox. At all.
I bought a new book today. I wanted to stray away from the smut. It's getting old and I don't want to read anymore of the "and she could feel his manhood growing as she desired him within..." Okay, I get it. He's got a boner and she's horny. Anyway, I bought The Fig Eater by Jodi Shields. It's a literary thriller set in 1910 Vienna beginning with a strangled 18 year old girl. It's on a good start so far and there are small inspirations of Freud in there. :)
I want to go antiquing. I want to waste all day in West Port. I want a huge Japanese fan.
I don't want to sleep and I'm craving some instant oatmeal, which seems to be all I eat anymore. I don't like telephones. I don't like cell phones. But they keep my preoccupied, sometimes.
I want to be out in the sun with my feet in a pond. No fish.
I have no more functional brain capacity. It's all filled with.. nothing really. I'm so tired and I've yet to hear the "I am a bitch, how do you want me? From behind or on my knees" of my cell phone ringing to go pick little miss drunky poo up. And really, anyone who drives drunk on that gravel road out to BFE is just insane. It's pure ice. Literally, like those ice levels on Mario Brothers. I hated those levels.
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[16 Feb 2007|11:35pm] |
Fo' Sho'!!!
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Brad, thanks for helping me fall asleep last night! You sent me to sleep with good thoughts, I miss you like mad! See you Friday! XD
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[14 Feb 2007|08:44pm] |
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I don't think there's ever been a day where I didn't want to ram my finger so far down my throat. How am I supposed to help customers when the whole time they are rambling about their significant other I'm puking. I made a stop at Wal-Mart with Mychala and there were men, men, men everywhere; flocked around the flowers, cards, and V-Day candy.
Mychala: We should buy each other flowers so we can say we got something.
Me: Flowers are stupid. Especially on a holiday when they are marketed to mean something valuable when in all reality they're marketed to say pound me in my fucking asshole.
I hate men.
All I wanted to do was sit at home and do nothing. And that's exactly what I'm doing. I'm not thinking about anyone or trying not too. I'm nervous as hell. I took Monday through Friday off. I checked my bank account today for my balance and was relieved to find out I had more than I thought in there so I'm good to go. Although going to L.A. I won't have any expenses to pay, it'd make me feel a hell of alot better to have something just in case. I have butterflies like no other. And all the worse things possible are flying in my head.
I want my Sid Vicious.
No I don't.
I need to be slapped and stop thinking about what I want.
"Sex is ugly. Sex is boring. Ugly. Teepeed. Shit."
Exterminate. Exterminate. Exterminate! LOL. Boring, Elysia, Boring. Stop it.
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[06 Feb 2007|04:32am] |
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Tonight was fun. No doubt at all about that. However I could have gone without the little bit of information a friend of mine told me. I'm not upset with her or what she told me, however I am hurt a little. It bummed me out so much I didn't even want to say bye to her. I must be doing something wrong. I'm 18. I despise the whole game of lust/love/passion/relationship.. whatever you call it. I hate it so much I pushed my sex drive away. I don't want it. It brings nothing good in my life except to keep me up crying when really... I shouldn't be. I used to tell people to fuck off because I'm single and awesome. I'm not so awesome and my security was squished. I don't even feel like I have that temporary security in a friend.
I'll post the rest of the pictures tomorrow when I'm in a little better mood.
"I must be doing something wrong to always feel this down. With an overwhelming urge to shout at those around I tried to reach out to the past, but the lesson learned was to not look back. The memories will just confuse. An overwhelmed and frightened youth."
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[02 Feb 2007|10:11pm] |
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I stopped hanging out with this girl as much as I used to. I don't have a problem with her, I've just been busy and she's in school. We joked around about being married on Facebook, but I changed it recently because I am in fact single. And I removed her from my list on MySpace which I didn't think was a big deal. It's just MySpace top friends. She's acting like we broke up. And it's starting to creep me out the extent of whining she's taking the situation to. Oi. Girls are too attached and boys aren't attached enough.
A guy I had a big thing for last year recently added me to MySpace. Apparently he's single. I'm not going to lie, I got all giddy when I saw that he was adding me. He knew I liked him last year. But I don't. It's gone. It's like that with all the guys past and present. I don't have much affection for them.
But there is good news: Q-tips and Q.P. Dolls!
I totally reminded myself of something I used to say awhile back: Don't you be a grumpy, when the road gets bumpy, just smile, smile, smile, and be happy! ^_^
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[01 Feb 2007|10:29pm] |
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I don't want biological kids or a significant other.
I want to adopt a little Japanese girl.
I like to fall asleep listening to someone speak French.
Random unexpected texts are admirable too.
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[31 Jan 2007|04:35pm] |
Yay for Ayria, Ego Likeness, and The Cruxshadows on Monday!
Then yay for hanging out with Brad Wednesday and Thursday!
I also bought a new camera today so I could take some decent quality pictures Monday. :)
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[29 Jan 2007|02:58am] |
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Jack Douglas will be headed for the Kansas City area at the end of the month and wants to do a bondage shoot with me and teach me to tie. So this will be the start of my bondage portfolio. I would like a male escort. Brad, you still up for it?
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[26 Jan 2007|12:15pm] |
Make well with the fellow nerds and things work out.
I'll be reviewing asian horror flicks for hmandm.com
Along with increasing my movie collection by 50+ movies.
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[22 Jan 2007|11:59am] |
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And boys are so cold they speek without meaning.
The only time they talk is in their sleep.
And girls are a bore.
They touch without feeling.
Their secrets always far too grim to keep.
And up until now you've lived in their shadows trying hard to please them.
But they'll never change as long as they're breathing.
Thinking hurts and thoughts dont rhyme.
To those of us who've never tried to find a face behind our lipstick smiles.
And as our pretty faces die our broken hearts will wonder why the makeup just won't dine the scars of time.
And boys are so cruel so dont let them find you tonight.
And girls are so vain so put them behind you tonight.
I'll cast you a spell a magic where everyone plays dead forever.
And after tonight they'll never remind you.
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[21 Jan 2007|10:32pm] |
Elysia: Hey Dave, do you like octopusses?
Dave: Octopussy? Yeah
Wesley: OCTOPUSSES!
Elysia: Hey now.. the extra 6 legs and 3 vaginas make for a wicked porn, but I'm talking about the sea creature.
They started transferring me to work in the other store. I hated it, but now that I'm acquainted with everyone there and I find out they are all perverts, I love working over there. I was to that point where I was going to quit. They inform me that a female pervert was needed over there so I could fill that position.
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